today i'm posting a drawing of my late sister whom passed away when she's 9, i'm 7..in 1983..she has been suffering from a sickness that i do not have the couraged to ask my mother.
all i remembered was her tummy bloated (tumour maybe), skinny and she got bald..she always slept on one of the sofa and requested me to rub her hands (do not know why)..think she felt comfortable and away from the pain.
she have been in surgery, twice. we thought the 2nd surgery was successful and got rid of the tumour..but no, it came back..i've never asked my parents about the sickness, or anything related to her back then..don't know why..as i grow older, i regretted that i never wanted to know about her 'pain'. to say that i'm too young?...not acceptable..i should have try to understand the pain..
in the noon, on friday (july, just few days before my bday) 1983, just got back from school, i saw few cars at the house yard..as i reached the door, my aunts were crying..told me that Salwa (her nickname) passed away..again, i do not know the reason she passed away..heard from others that she slipped in the toilet and broke her neck. never confirmed that with my mother, not even until today. believe it or not, my parents are strong, esp my father. he kept his sadness from others. my mother, of course there's weeping..
i cried everytime i visited her grave in kampung, for all the reasons above. so sad i never got to know and see her grow up and have sisters' chat..LOVE? i do not know, we don't really know each other when we're kids. most memories with her wasn't clear enough, that i 've no confident to declare my love to Salwa..
May God Almighty have mercy on my late sister...and all the regret i have will be diminished..Amin
3 comments:
Everything happens for a reason.. For sure, your sister is happy wherever she is right now..
God bless..
Wow, I'll learn alot from you. Thanks.
thank you very much..appreciate your thoughts